October 5, 2008:
"Brittney Webster blessed our hearts as she shared with us that God was directing her life to serve Him in some capacity in foreign missions. Her life is a true testimony for Christ and time will tell us what God has in store for her." ~Charity Baptist Church bulletin
I don't remember what I said to my church family that day. In fact, I don't even remember being on stage. What I do recall is the work that God was doing in my life then. It's the same work that He is furthering today.
I am called to foreign missions...
End of story. Piece of cake...right?
No, not so much.
Often, I forget why I'm here...why we're all here...
I came to college in the fall of 2009 knowing that I wanted to do mission work.
I will graduate in mere months, in the spring of 2013, with a Psychology/Social Services degree...knowing still that I want to do mission work.
I've never desired a 9-5 or to be a counselor, but when I came to CBC, I got cold-feet and switched my degree ASAP.
Now, I'm not saying that one needs a "Missions" degree to be a missionary, but I am saying that my current degree, though I enjoy it, was a fall-back plan.
Many times I've convinced myself into comfortability. I've tried to reason that I could get a good, respectable job, marry a pastor of some sort, and then settle into a happily-ever-after in "Your Dream Hometown."
The sad thing: the lies Itold tell myself actually work. For a little while.
The truth of the matter is that my dreams are way bigger than small town U.S.A...
and...
I'm not afraid to keep dreaming.
Don't get me wrong, it's scary.
I don't know what to tell people when they ask, "So, what are you doing after graduation?" I don't know where I'll be or what I'll be doing a year from this very day.
I fear that I will be forever alone...that the perfect guy is too afraid of the unknown of the future to take charge of the here and now.
I don't look forward to hard goodbyes and leaving the friends and family that I dearly love.
I don't even know where I am supposed to "go," though there are a few places that I already love.
What I do know are these things:
The Lord loves me with a love everlasting and has my best interests in mind (Romans 8:28).
I trust Him...This trust falters at times, but at the end of each day, it remains constant.
By losing everything, I will gain life eternal (Mark 8:35).
My joy is made complete when I get to share Christ with others; there's nothing I enjoy more.
So, maybe
I will never have the cookie-cutter life.
Though that means rough-times, tears, hard conversations, persecution, and letting go of comforts and idols now, I think that I will one-day be okay with that...
"Brittney Webster blessed our hearts as she shared with us that God was directing her life to serve Him in some capacity in foreign missions. Her life is a true testimony for Christ and time will tell us what God has in store for her." ~Charity Baptist Church bulletin
I don't remember what I said to my church family that day. In fact, I don't even remember being on stage. What I do recall is the work that God was doing in my life then. It's the same work that He is furthering today.
I am called to foreign missions...
End of story. Piece of cake...right?
No, not so much.
Often, I forget why I'm here...why we're all here...
I came to college in the fall of 2009 knowing that I wanted to do mission work.
I will graduate in mere months, in the spring of 2013, with a Psychology/Social Services degree...knowing still that I want to do mission work.
I've never desired a 9-5 or to be a counselor, but when I came to CBC, I got cold-feet and switched my degree ASAP.
Now, I'm not saying that one needs a "Missions" degree to be a missionary, but I am saying that my current degree, though I enjoy it, was a fall-back plan.
Many times I've convinced myself into comfortability. I've tried to reason that I could get a good, respectable job, marry a pastor of some sort, and then settle into a happily-ever-after in "Your Dream Hometown."
The sad thing: the lies I
The truth of the matter is that my dreams are way bigger than small town U.S.A...
and...
I'm not afraid to keep dreaming.
Don't get me wrong, it's scary.
I don't know what to tell people when they ask, "So, what are you doing after graduation?" I don't know where I'll be or what I'll be doing a year from this very day.
I fear that I will be forever alone...that the perfect guy is too afraid of the unknown of the future to take charge of the here and now.
I don't look forward to hard goodbyes and leaving the friends and family that I dearly love.
I don't even know where I am supposed to "go," though there are a few places that I already love.
What I do know are these things:
The Lord loves me with a love everlasting and has my best interests in mind (Romans 8:28).
I trust Him...This trust falters at times, but at the end of each day, it remains constant.
By losing everything, I will gain life eternal (Mark 8:35).
My joy is made complete when I get to share Christ with others; there's nothing I enjoy more.
So, maybe
I will never have the cookie-cutter life.
Though that means rough-times, tears, hard conversations, persecution, and letting go of comforts and idols now, I think that I will one-day be okay with that...
